it's been long time since i posted something here.
a lot has happened to me but i'm glad that amidst everything i have been through,
my family and friends never left my side.
love...it makes the world go around...or so they say...
i just had this very sad conversation with a friend
of mine at school.
i think it's sad because of how she does not believe in love.
well, she's not a man-hater or a lesbian.
she's actually very friendly, charming and a beautiful person inside out.
she's had one serious relationship before but wasn't traumatic after that.
so you might wonder now what is wrong with her perception of love then?
well, she chose not to believe in love because of how it makes people behave.
too much and too less of it makes people go gaga..
she's also the type who's a confidant to most of her friends' love lives.
she emphatizes a lot with them...or at least that's the way i think she is.
she's so scared to face love because what her friends
are undergoing might happen to her as well.
I told her there's always a risk to every decision.
It is only up to you if you let that decision
sway because of your fear.
I think what she was really scared of was how
she would be when she falls with someone.
Once we're all still out of that "bubble" called love
it's easy to say we won't do this or that when we're in love.
But who among us can say we actually have
followed what we told ourselves before?
Love is very powerful.
It can help us do things we've never imagined doing before.
We can do great things with love.
Love can also be destructive.
But no matter how love can be to us, what is important I
think is that we should also trust ourselves with it and
cut ourselves some slack. everybody makes mistakes.
We've all had that one "crazy love" or even two.
strength..faith..courage..
these are what I think are important to face love.
nobody said it would be easy and no matter how hard it may seem,
to love and be loved is an achievement one can always cherish for a lifetime.
hi, i'm back. i've been really busy the past month 'cuz of the fun run we organized at makati last sun. the event went well except for some changes we should make next year regarding the techincal process. i guess it just took a lot of my energy and patience that i often was hotheaded and had my patience on a short leash.
my birthday is coming up and i can't wait to get it over with. i don't know if i'm being pessimistic or just not fond of planning what to do for my bday. i guess it's the third year that i've been wanting to have all of my friends just spend my special day with me and i can't seem to gather them all together. i understand we all live different lives now but everytime my bday comes, i just feel sad that i'm forced to celebrate something and the people i want to celebrate with aren't there. oh well, i guess we all are indeed growing up.i just have to be patient and resched some other time i guess.
i'm happy for an old friend of mine who's getting married early next year. i'm so glad we still keep in touch. i can't believe people my age are having babies and getting married and i'm not yet done with college! argg! well, that's all for now. i'll post something soon i promise.
sorry guys,it's been awhile since i've posted something.
well, i can't believe first term has ended already.
my grades are fine but i guess i could have done better.
so, what have i been up to lately.
first, i'm preparing another surprise party
for someone special,my sister.
i kinda had the urge to plan her one 'cuz i believe she deserves to have a stress-free bday this year.
second, i can't believe me and Pe have been
together for half a year already by tomorrow.
i always have heard that in a relationship
one of the hardest part would be between the months of 6 to 8.
but hey, i guess it doesn't have to fall
really during those months.
me and Pe have had our share of misunderstandings
and adjustments and i'm sure we're headed for more challenges.
there were times wherein i have caught myself acting strangely like being jealous.
yes, jessica has experienced being jealous.
but i was jealous for a REAL reason.
i never saw myself to be ever jealous of someone else.
i always viewed jealous people to be insecure.
but when it hit me one day, i knew
i had to accept and be true to what i was really feeling.
a really good girl friend of mine told me once,
to beware of close girl friend/s of your boyfriend.
it's not that she/they can break you up,
but there comes a time wherein you want to avoid
too much familiarity to the point of the what if part happens..
then jealousy can really be powerful and ruin you.
jealousy can ruin a relationship.
too much jealousy mean lack of trust.
the absence of jealousy in a relationship can also be negative.
without jealousy means TOO MUCH understanding and lack of attachment.
i guess that's why sometimes people in a relationship do crazy things to make their partners jealous and check if they are still being loved and given attention to.
today was the 1st day back to school for me...well, i must admit it wasn't as nice as last term. i felt like i was walking thorugh the halls of our campus struggling to see Pe. but he wasn't coming. he couldn't even if i wanted to. 1st day of ojt for at Dept. of Trade & Industry (DTI). it was really sad...i really felt lonely.
in a way i was to blame 'cuz i got used to the idea that he was always there with me. but now, it has to sink in he couldn't be there as much as he used to be. at least for this term.
we texted each other a couple of times in the morning till around 2:15 p.m. (during my art apreciation class), when i got a call from him. i rejected it twice 'cuz class wasn't over yet. but when we got dismissd after 5 mins. i finally was able to answer his call. he sounded like he was at busy area. i couldn't hear him clearly. then i walked from SJ208 to Yunchengco for my last class. but it was a lil early for my next class so i decided to drop by the track tambayan.
we were still talking then on the cellphone when he asked what i was wearing, i said:"a cream sleeveless top, jeans and brown heels", then he said: "oo, nga ang taas ng shoes mo".
i honestly got goosebumps. then i asked where he was and he said: "nasa likod mo". then it was a very kilig moment for me. i never expected him to drop by and visit me. he looked so handsome in his green polo, black slacks, and black leather shoes. i was so shocked seeing him right behind me that i just stood there looking at him for the first few seconds. then i gave him a kiss.
he brought me to my last class at Y604.he noticed as he we walked that i was holding his hand quite hard. he said:"namiss ng kamay mo 'yung kamay ko". then i smiled.
hay..this week really has been too much for me.
me and Pe have been shopping for three days straight! we've been from robinson's galleria, sm southmall, festival mall & atc. we bought shoes, jeans, shirts, and even matching jackets!
Pe is a couple of steps away from being a truly adopted southern boy. we got his BF sticker and Bf Heva sticker yesterday. unfortunately, we couldn't get an e-pass unit 'cuz it's still out of stock. darn! alabang hills sticker application is coming up and too bad the Heva non-resident sticker can't allow him to pass through east phase 6 so we still need to get him that too.
hay, buhay south talaga..stickers, stickers,stickers.
Pe was so happy when we went out the Heva gate and the guards (who wre fond of him and always smiling 'cuz he's always visiting me) noticed his sticker that they were surprised and were saying that they're happy for him they don't have to get his license everytime.
we went to mr.bhoy (in bf phase1) to get his slacks which he had altered. south na south na talaga baby ko!
then we went around atc to look at jeans for him.he bought a pair from human and i picked out a great buy ( a rusty orange strpied polo for 399 bucks, it used to bee around 700+) then he bought that too.
we played at timezone yesterday and i really had one of my dreamdate activities fulfilled. i've always wanted to play there. we played shooting hoops 9i won 1 out of 3), air hockey (i lost 6-2), dirtbike racing (i lost by a second!), the shooting gun thing (we sucked! hehe!), and daytona (i won yey!).
then we watched the movie Shrek 2! it was great! but i had moments wherein i really held on to his hand 'cuz i knew in a few hours our night was going to be over. his ojt starts this monday and its from (m-f 8-5 pm) this means really a big thing for us 'cuz its a step that we need to take. it'll be a first for us not getting used to seeing each other everyday. i'm scared, but really trying my best to get through it. it'll be three months. and i'll be busy naman with school, track, student council and of course preparations ofr his bday.
i'll surely miss holding his hand.
me & Brian :P 
i officially started with my surprise video for Pe today. i took shots of some of his close friends from the student council. last saturday I also got to sneak out some of his childhood pics. thanks to Neneng (Pe's maid & yaya since he was a kid) gave them to me.
i'm honestly scared right now 'cuz Pe will start his ojt this thursday and it'll be from 8 to 5 pm mon-fri, and even baka saturdays rin. i'm scared 'cuz it hasn't sank in me yet...that I won't see and be with him often. a transistion from almost everyday seeing him to just merely once a week, on saturdays after 5 pm.
i'll surely miss knowing he's just there next to me..soemone who holds my hand.
jess g.
i'm twenty-three years old.
school: de la salle university
i'm happy.
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